RULES

BEFORE YOU PROCEED, PLEASE READ ALL.FOR ERP ONLY SESSIONS ONLY CONSIDER THE BOLD-- If you want a dedicated session, Female Characters Only for RP, please. You can be male OOC, just as long as your character is female regardless of anatomy. And I do greatly prefer one on one sessions over group ones/staying in venues for long periods of time. WU/T. IC > OOC approach in game. 21+ IRL and IC preferred, 18+ required. MS not required as I do not use mods on my character but would like to see yours.
-- I am separate from my character, although I prefer going by the same name. Please make it clear if you're talking to/about me (Eivana) or my character (Eivana Z). OOC and IC are separate, my character's thoughts and feelings do not equal my own. I am NOT looking for or wanting a relationship OOC beyond friendship through FFXIVRP.
-- OUTSIDE OF VENUES AND ERP ONLY SESSIONS, Eivana is mute. There is no changing this but there are workarounds, let me know what you want to use or else she would communicate by picking from a list of options you give or body language. Otherwise, her speech is limited and can be slow. In romantic sessions, there is a special method only possible in that genre but it has to have buildup lead up to it.
--I'm looking for longer term sessions like romance, friendship, found family, or rivalry. Heavily prefer those over short sessions and taking time to let characters and plots develop. And I'm looking for more developed characters, not a cutout or a newly made one. I can offer advice on how to make characters, but I cannot make a character for you if I don't get the same effort in return. It's well appreciated if you show me a carrd of your character first as well.
--I am based in PST and only available in the evenings in game. I'm over 21. I'm okay with dark/sexual/heavy themes but need a heads up if we're going in those directions.
--My RP style is literate with multiple paragraphs and mostly in /em and I prefer the same, for maximum clarity. I can mirror, but prefer something to work off of. I will also vary the length of the post depending on the situation. And literacy to me includes proper spelling, capitalization, and punctuation. I will not do well with only one-liners posts or low effort posts. Complete sentences are what I require, bare minimum.
--I am not completely caught up on MSQ or super well versed in the game lore / game world, please do teach me SPOILER FREE! On that note, Eivana's lore may seem lore-bending, but I would rather have some freedom of expression with it. There is a small portion of Ishgard's population that isn't Hyur or Elezen, and Eivana's family isn't royal at all, just has a lot of money and trying to act like the high houses without any of the true status of one, hence just "high class" and not the high houses.--If the session becomes long term, I will start playing multiple characters. You are not expected to do the same, only from what you can handle. Just let me know about those other characters as well if you're using them, as well as their plots. Tupper will be ideal for this.
--Getting closer with Eivana Z would have to dive into sensitive topics so just letting you know now, it will have to involve descriptions of torture, self-harm, addiction, low self esteem, if this would get further than a casual interaction, that is part of her character lore. In discord, all of the sensitive stuff will be spoilered. I also have a go-to storyline with her, but I'm open to any ideas you may have!
--I save logs in game so you can ask me for a recap if you need it! If the session becomes long term you may ask me to be lore keeper.
--I prefer RP in game over discord but I'm open to both, and posts I'll make mostly in /em including in venues but let me know if you prefer a private channel. Discord is much easier for me to respond to, in game is limited to my pc and only available in late evenings my time. In both I will try to give longer posts.
--Please make communication clear through posts or OOC, I cannot guess what's going on if there's barely anything to rely on. I'm willing to talk with you to make things understandable for both of us before we start as well as during the session itself.--If you don't want to use discord, you may contact me via Mogmail or send me a tell whenever I'm on. I don't use the busy tag but I am still in the middle of MSQ. If you add me on discord, please tell me who you are within 24 hours of me accepting your request, or else I will delete you. I also prefer timely responses when on discord within a few days, or a heads up of why some posts took longer than 10 minutes in game. During the week on discord I may be able to make posts but I would be at work, so responses may be slow.
--on Discord, I will also check in if I don't get a reply within a week, and if I don't get any answer after TWO attempts to check in, I will delete you. I don't use invisible on discord, and I cannot guess if you're really offline or just invisible so please just answer me if you're still wanting to keep this going, even if it's just to tell me you cannot be on or that you would be busy for an extended period. Just make your interest clear if it's there, and I would assume it is not if I receive nothing. My DND tag is purely for when I am at work, you may message me but replies will be inconsistent when I have to work again.
--If you don't want to RP with me anymore or if you cannot due to scheduling or something IRL, or it happens that our characters are no longer compatible, I prefer you tell me directly, even if it's just "I'm no longer interested." I won't hold anything against you for that. Again, very open communication preferred, as well as respecting time. If we schedule for a certain date and time, I will check in the previous week, day, and half an hour before. I prefer roleplaying with adults, and talking with other adults as such in an adult way. I use a calendar app for my sessions, but I will also follow up if a surprise happens!--IF YOU ARE NOT FOLLOWING UP ON PLANS WE MADE TIME FOR, PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE WASTING SOMEONE ELSE'S TIME AS WELL.-- I DON'T BLOCK PEOPLE UNLESS THEY'RE ACTUALLY MAKING ME UNCOMFORTABLE, SO PLEASE DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE, BIGOT, OR TRY TO FORCE INTERACTION. I ALSO DO NOT APPRECIATE BEING RANDOMLY BLOCKED/DELETED.AND IF IT'S YOUR FIRST TIME HERE, BY PROCEEDING TO THE REST OF THE CARRD AND USING MY CONTACT INFORMATION YOU AGREE TO ALL OF THESE RULES BEFORE ROLEPLAYING WITH ME, AND I HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMIND YOU OF ANY OF THESE RULES.

Profile

Her story starts as Lady Eivana, a pseudo-high class Ishgardian soldier who once aimed to be a dragoon. She didn't see Azure Dragoon as the goal, just being a dragoon would have been enough to satisfy her and her family. Her family, all with silver eyes, expected her to excel in something that would either make them or the city proud because all before her were known for excellence in something, implying they wanted her to be Azure Dragoon and her father told her she's already a failure for only having one silver eye and her brothers in particular plagued her with a strong feeling of guilt that has since weighed down on her and has never left. But once it was the final initiation after 6 years of training, she left before she could be enlisted on the front lines, even if her skills were always seen as incredible by her peers and superiors, doing everything they asked with nothing short of perfection, enough for the church to consider her the Spear of Halone. She realized her entire life has been consumed by the slippery slope of not being good enough, and the harsh training was unbearable on her body and spirit. Knowing she disappointed her family more than she already has, she threw her life away and left Ishgard, thinking it was the better option than to be known as the shameful failure. She hoped that the generations after her would just erase her name from their memory, or think she's dead. Her military trained body was the only reason she didn't die trekking all the way down south on her own.
Trying to adjust to a life where she wasn't constantly watched, judged, or under attack was rough on her. She couldn't relax with her body being broken into only being for war. The trauma of all the expectations left her unable to speak, even though she couldn't other than "yes sir no sir." She left as far away as she could from anywhere that spoke in survival, she only wanted to live, as simply Eivana. Her wandering felt second nature, as was watching people to learn how to live a simpler, peaceful life. From the peaceful nature of Gridania, to the bustling ships through Limsa Lominsa, to the competitive spirit of the Gold Saucer, it was slowly replacing her old life and she could finally feel. She found comfort in both lively cities and small villages, not needing to settle in either of them.
With all the military training impossible to unlearn, she still had the shameful history weighing on her mind and couldn't have communication with others as much as she wants, but yearns to expand her new life, whether it be for the next risky adventure or the next time she could sit down and watch the waves in the harbor.Simplified profile
Name: Eivana
Gender: Female
Age: late 20s
Race: Au Ra, Xaela
Profession: Formerly Dragoon, currently on random favors for gil.
Hometown: Ishgard
Residence: None, takes the gil earned from the day for an inn room, rotates between Limsa, Gridania, and Ul'dah.Writing Sample
Eivana steps off another trade ship, not going too far so she could still be within the captain's sights to unload it as they dropped anchor. Other deckhands started to leap off the side with thick ropes, tying them around the dock just in case. The waves were completely calm, the ship gliding across the water until the ropes stopped it from running into the wooden surface.The captain steps off, as well as the other volunteers that have been hired on this trip. He was clear that he was looking for quantity over quality; although Eivana could provide more than enough quality just on her own, she didn't look as muscular or built as some of the male Hyurs showing their strength through the tank tops they could barely fit in. He observes them, nods, and makes his way towards the nearest building to find his client.His client is a Lalafell, holding a clipboard. After having a discussion that Eivana was too far to make anything out of, the lalafell signs and the captain shoots out his arm towards the ship. Eivana and the others make their way back onto the deck and start lifting the crates that were piled up around the mast and inner sections. Eivana, as usual, takes up 3 giant crates that were more than twice her height at the most, swinging her head off to the side to find her way. Some of the male Hyurs look at her in shock for far too long before going back to unload their singular crate, one at a time. The capain watches them unload, raising a single brow at the smaller Au Ra being able to lift so much, but nods at every crate being dropped off at the Lalafell's side. Every container came as ordered.Gil was exchanged, and they shook hands and were on their way. The captain takes the gil pouch and waits for everyone to finish unloading. Eivana was waiting patiently sitting at the edge of the dock, while the male hyurs around her were splayed out under the hot sun after delivering just one crate. He sighs, but divides the pay evenly regardless of what he saw. Eivana bites her tongue inside her mouth, and then leaves with a somewhat annoyed expression none of them saw. Underpaid again. She would have to head back to another board to see if she could at least save up for a meal.

Hooks

Open to new hooks, will take suggestionsCrafting and gathering - Since leaving the military she's started to have an interest towards what didn't have to do with causing harm or the harsh dragoon training. Her muscle memory from then helps her with an eye for detail and to defend herself when she's gathering in the field, even if she isn't using a lance. She can end up staring at someone else crafting just to learn, or mimic them to help. She also has a similar appreciation whenever she sees something that is very well crafted, whether that be clothes, weapons, or jewelry. Although, most of what she learned is through purely watching instead of being in an established community, and what she makes ends up being given away, even though you might think they're worth more than that..Women - having been one of few women in the military, she can't help but observe beautiful women when they come by. She ends up exaggerating her gestures a bit if she ends up having to communicate with them. This is the most apparent towards taller women. She ends up paying too much attention at whatever they're interested in, even if she doesn't look like it. She doesn't try to flirt, but at least tries to get on their good side, as shy as she can be. She really likes looking at their eyes, and would perk up at the mention of her own.Gold Saucer - she loves pushing herself through gates, and goes through every event at least once before winding down. She comes here after a long day of traveling or gathering, and likes watching anything from the slice is right on the main stage to the mahjong tables. Her eye for detail helps in those games. She has quite a bit of MGP stockpiled, but never sure on what to get. Her athleticism is easily seen in Leap of Faith.For Hire - Having to rely on enough gil for an inn room and/or food to survive, she is willing to take on any job no matter how dangerous it is, using either her crafting or gathering skills as described above, or going into dangerous territory like hunting monsters or escorting through beastmen territory. She will do the job to the letter with no questions asked and with the fullest extent of her ability. She is willing to fight with her training, but not to be completely out for blood. In a team of others, she is more effective taking orders and covering the back.Ishgardian legacy - Her family has been in very high positions of most parts of Ishgard despite not being adopted by one of the high houses, and Eivana herself has been the spear of the church for half an epoch[6 years]. She's not very open about it, but she is not aware that the Dragonsong war is over or that there are attempts at peace.

OOC

PLEASE READ ALL BEFORE MESSAGING ME FOR DEDICATED SESSIONS OUTSIDE OF VENUESFOR ERP ONLY SESSIONS ONLY CONSIDER THE BOLD-- If you want a dedicated session, Female Characters Only for RP, please. You can be male OOC, just as long as your character is female regardless of anatomy. And I do greatly prefer one on one sessions over group ones/staying in venues for long periods of time. WU/T. IC > OOC approach in game. 21+ IRL and IC preferred, 18+ required. MS not required as I do not use mods on my character but would like to see yours.
-- I am separate from my character, although I prefer going by the same name. Please make it clear if you're talking to/about me (Eivana) or my character (Eivana Z). OOC and IC are separate, my character's thoughts and feelings do not equal my own. I am NOT looking for or wanting a relationship OOC beyond friendship through FFXIVRP.
-- OUTSIDE OF VENUES AND ERP ONLY SESSIONS, Eivana is mute. There is no changing this but there are workarounds, let me know what you want to use or else she would communicate by picking from a list of options you give or body language. Otherwise, her speech is limited and can be slow. In romantic sessions, there is a special method only possible in that genre but it has to have buildup lead up to it.
--I'm looking for longer term sessions like romance, friendship, found family, or rivalry. Heavily prefer those over short sessions and taking time to let characters and plots develop. And I'm looking for more developed characters, not a cutout or a newly made one. I can offer advice on how to make characters, but I cannot make a character for you if I don't get the same effort in return. It's well appreciated if you show me a carrd of your character first as well.
--I am based in PST and only available in the evenings in game. I'm over 21. I'm okay with dark/sexual/heavy themes but need a heads up if we're going in those directions.
--My RP style is literate with multiple paragraphs and mostly in /em and I prefer the same, for maximum clarity. I can mirror, but prefer something to work off of. I will also vary the length of the post depending on the situation. And literacy to me includes proper spelling, capitalization, and punctuation. I will not do well with only one-liners posts or low effort posts. Complete sentences are what I require, bare minimum.
--I am not completely caught up on MSQ or super well versed in the game lore / game world, please do teach me SPOILER FREE! On that note, Eivana's lore may seem lore-bending, but I would rather have some freedom of expression with it. There is a small portion of Ishgard's population that isn't Hyur or Elezen, and Eivana's family isn't royal at all, just has a lot of money and trying to act like the high houses without any of the true status of one, hence just "high class" and not the high houses.--If the session becomes long term, I will start playing multiple characters. You are not expected to do the same, only from what you can handle. Just let me know about those other characters as well if you're using them, as well as their plots. Tupper will be ideal for this.
--Getting closer with Eivana Z would have to dive into sensitive topics so just letting you know now, it will have to involve descriptions of torture, self-harm, addiction, low self esteem, if this would get further than a casual interaction, that is part of her character lore. In discord, all of the sensitive stuff will be spoilered. I also have a go-to storyline with her, but I'm open to any ideas you may have!
--I save logs in game so you can ask me for a recap if you need it! If the session becomes long term you may ask me to be lore keeper.
--I prefer RP in game over discord but I'm open to both, and posts I'll make mostly in /em including in venues but let me know if you prefer a private channel. Discord is much easier for me to respond to, in game is limited to my pc and only available in late evenings my time. In both I will try to give longer posts.
--Please make communication clear through posts or OOC, I cannot guess what's going on if there's barely anything to rely on. I'm willing to talk with you to make things understandable for both of us before we start as well as during the session itself.--If you don't want to use discord, you may contact me via Mogmail or send me a tell whenever I'm on. I don't use the busy tag but I am still in the middle of MSQ. If you add me on discord, please tell me who you are within 24 hours of me accepting your request, or else I will delete you. I also prefer timely responses when on discord within a few days, or a heads up of why some posts took longer than 10 minutes in game. During the week on discord I may be able to make posts but I would be at work, so responses may be slow.
--on Discord, I will also check in if I don't get a reply within a week, and if I don't get any answer after TWO attempts to check in, I will delete you. I don't use invisible on discord, and I cannot guess if you're really offline or just invisible so please just answer me if you're still wanting to keep this going, even if it's just to tell me you cannot be on or that you would be busy for an extended period. Just make your interest clear if it's there, and I would assume it is not if I receive nothing. My DND tag is purely for when I am at work, you may message me but replies will be inconsistent when I have to work again.
--If you don't want to RP with me anymore or if you cannot due to scheduling or something IRL, or it happens that our characters are no longer compatible, I prefer you tell me directly, even if it's just "I'm no longer interested." I won't hold anything against you for that. Again, very open communication preferred, as well as respecting time. If we schedule for a certain date and time, I will check in the previous week, day, and half an hour before. I prefer roleplaying with adults, and talking with other adults as such in an adult way. I use a calendar app for my sessions, but I will also follow up if a surprise happens!--IF YOU ARE NOT FOLLOWING UP ON PLANS WE MADE TIME FOR, PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE WASTING SOMEONE ELSE'S TIME AS WELL.-- I don't block people unless they're actually making me uncomfortable, so please don't be an asshole, bigot, or try to force interaction.RPer profile
I'm Eivana, still new to FFXIV and its RP scene. Still love making OCs and original stories for myself since 2013, it's an outlet for thinking too much, and this is the first time I'm trying it out in public although I've RPed in other places but not in the expected style.I commissioned a keyboard just for roleplaying, which you can check out here. Thank you Balance!Outside of roleplaying, I'm a VCD major, CPhT, and professional cosplay photographer for over 10 years. Feel free to talk to me about any of that!

Romance and NSFW interactions

FOR ALL ERP PLEASE READ KINKSHEET/FLIST FIRSTAll of her romantic partners are in separate canons
One night stands/hookups have to be established first if there's going to be no RP activity beyond that
No NSFW with anyone under 21, lalafells, or male characters
If it's a first time partner, Eivana is a virgin with no experience, and would rely on the other partner to set the mood
Eivana is only interested in women, and has no prior experience in anything romantic or sexual. From not seeing a lot of women in the army, she still has to get used to seeing so many women at once, even in lesbian venues. If the situation arises, she mostly lets it happen but rarely ever initiates anything herself due to being nervous around beautiful women and not wanting to seem pushy, although as soon as that is established, she hands herself over easily and lets the other woman take the lead in things.
Eventually she does want to find someone who she can stay with, who she can always rely and lean on, and who would stay with her as long as time allows, accepting her and her flaws alike. Throughout establishing a relationship she explores feelings that she has long since repressed or never knew she could feel from her sheltered upbringing. As soon as she gets comfortable, she would jump headfirst into her feelings even if she doesn't know what to do with them, and her loyalty would have her stay as long as she could the whole way.

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